A few days back, I took it upon myself to start watching my kdramas again. And so I decided to watch Heartstrings. Ok, I swear that I thought that the lead actress is Yoon Eun Hye, BUT NO, it is actually Park Shin Hye! THEY LOOK THE EXACT SAME I CAN'T TELL THE DIFFERENCE ANYMORE NOOOOOOZ And this also shows how long I have been out of kpop. Too long.

I've been procrastinating this back-to-kdrama post for quite a while and this is what I've been meaning to write.

There was a point in my life that Korean entertainment was an outlet for me to indulge it and at the same time, forget whatever problems I had at that moment. Basically, it was all dramas, songs, reality tv.... anything Korean. Real life had barely any space for me there. All I ever did was sleep, eat, go to school, get back home and watch whatever I could get my hands on. And watching these dramas, even though I felt happy, sad or angry, some of it I had yet to be able to relate it to my own life. Because technically, my life was what I pictured it to be in dramas (which no I do not want my life to be a drama any more)

Then I dropped out of what I call a 'phase'. Well, to me it is a phase, but I don't know about other people. I started working 6days/ week back then (that was in January 2011) and I absolutely had no time or energy to stay up and check on all the updates. So gradually, I lost the momentum of being in this scene. And then everything else caught up. I realized 'Wow, there is so much to do around me and yet here I am wishing that my beloved idols would know I exist'. (I still do get a thrill from seeing them in real life though) But then so, I knew it was time for me to grow up and see the world for myself, and not just through camera lenses. And so I did.

Now, watching this drama, it seems that my emotions are more controlled, no crazy screaming as of yet.... I think haha It's like I knew what will happen, I can predict it, and I also know that it might not happen in my life. I don't know how to phrase what I actually want to get to, I am really horrible at expressing myself now. Alright so, watching Heartstrings, sigh it's like I've been there, done that but the ending for me isn't the same yknow?

Okay I will end there because I really want to finish my drama!!!

Labels: bottomless pit kind of deep, k:drama

A: what it be mothafucka
Me: what it beeeeee
A: eh where are you at now?
Me: uhhhhh home?
A: you mean you never go to school at all?!?!
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAH ooooops yah
A: walao thought wanna take train home with you sia!
Me: HOME? WHAT HOME?
A: SINCE YOU HOME ALREADY, NO NEED LA. B Y E /hangs up

Ah, what nice friends I have hahahahahha

Labels: conversations

This song came on my shuffle and for once, I really looked into what the lyrics meant and I realised 'That sounds pretty much like me.'

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone, or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I have sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness.
Because none of it was ever worth the risk.
- The Only Exception, Paramore

The only difference between the song and me is that I have yet to find my 'only exception'. And I don't believe I ever will. Not anymore.

Love and long-lasting relationships among friends and family, yes that I do have some faith in. But between two people? Honestly in this day and age, it is really tough. You have to be totally in love with your other half and that's hard to come by. There are always other distracting factors.

And even if you say you love someone so much, how much is much? Even in Snow White, the King said he loved his wife so much that when she died he was devastated. But he forgot about his sorrows when he saw the beauty of Ravenna (the witch).

HOW HOW HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE HER SO MUCH WHEN YOUR HEART CAN BE SWAYED BY A STRANGER'S 'BEAUTY'? All lies I tell you. (ok fine Charlize Theron is gorgeous but that's still no excuse stupid king)

So yea, it's these nitty gritty things that made me lose my hope in ever being in a relationship at all. But fuck that shit cause I will be contented with marrying my career and adopting five cats haha

Here's to all who plans to be forever single, cheers
🍸🍸🍸

Labels: explanations, lyrics

Labels: 2NE1, bottomless pit kind of deep, gif, k:idol, what holidays again?

I seriously can't live without twitter. It is the source of my life in words, literally. And it keeps updating. And it's also my instant messaging, where I find my kpop updates, where I get to see what people are up to... I lied. Twitter's another platform for me to stalk people's inner thoughts. Facebook is where you see what they are up to, that is, if they update at all. I know a couple of people who just let it die like a rotting bug.


Talking about dying like a rotting bug, there is a fucking huge ass cockroach in my toilet. And truth be told, I am not such a huge fan of insects. LIAR AKI. LIAR. OK FINE. I am fucking terrified of insects, especially if they fly! Like omgaaaahhhhhd can you imagine this disgusting huge squishy thing that's crawling towards you and suddenly they're all like "I'LL SPREAD MY WINDS AND I'LL LEARN HOW TO FLYYYYY" into my face. No ok. Just... no. So to whoever who finds and actually reads this dust-collecting blog, you have found my weakness. Congratulations. Need confetti?


[02:07] @sunsetburn: unf he has rippled abs. I can't think sane. 
[02:08] @prettyscars: So don't you worry about, people hanging around, they ain't bringing us down.#nowplaying
[02:10] @sunsetburn: back to boy crazy but never actually serious for just one.
[02:19] @prettyscars: Keep your eyes focused this time, keep us in front of your sights #nowplaying
[02:21] @prettyscars: OMG IT IS 2:21 @sabzxs !!! HAHAHA
[02:21] @prettyscars: now people will know @sunsetburn exists cause of this blogpost
[02:22] @prettyscars: but oh hey heh it iz privateeeee :*
[02:29] @oheythr: am I late to this blog/twitter party?
[02:29] @oheythr: OHHH SO WHAT'D YOU DO TO MEE OHHHHH #nowplaying
[02:30] @prettyscars: @oheythr yes you are.
[02:30] @prettyscars: G O O D B A M
[02:31] @oheythr: @prettyscars Hoshiz hell no the party does not start without me!
[02:32] @oheythr: @prettyscars fug, sleeping already? WHAI WHAIIII!!!!!
[02:33] @sunsetburn: @oheythr just shut up will you.


I NEED TO WRITE A FIC NAO HAHAHHA OK BYE

Labels: twitter fails, wack crack and mack, what is this

This girl is partly insane I tell you. Hahah what would I do without her in my life man.

Labels: love

I wanted to write some meaningful long draggy post but I can't seem to put my vocabulary together in my head.

But you made me think. Think about everyone and their place in life. My life. (yes this will be extremely self-centered but HEY! Let's pretend you are the I/me/my/mine in this post ok? Then maybe relate it to your life somehow? Yeah end of, uhm, this)

Technically everyone has a place in your life. Everyone teaches you something. Even if it's not obvious, you would somehow learn something about life from then. Like 'hey I've learnt that there are people like this in the world who works like this and that' etc GET MY DRIFT?

So yeah, I don't mean it when I say I hate you, or imply it.... I might have condemned you to the deepest level of hell, (don't worry I don't specify which level when I condemn people to hell, saying 'GO TO THE DEEPEST LEVEL OF HELL YOU FOOOOOOOL' takes too much effort), but yeah uh I don't really mean it. Who am I to tell people where to go anyway? (GO GET ME BREAKFAST BITCH HAHAHAHAAH I'm kidding guise)

AH I LOST THE ESSENCE OF MY POST. HI THIS IS AKI'S UNNEEDED HUMOR COMING DOWN TO DESTROY THE SERIOUS POST PARTY YAY. /throws confettis /sets up banners /spray graffiti uh yah ok bai

p.s what even aki. what even. sigh.

Labels: Of which it does not make sense

A few days back, I took it upon myself to start watching my kdramas again. And so I decided to watch Heartstrings. Ok, I swear that I thought that the lead actress is Yoon Eun Hye, BUT NO, it is actually Park Shin Hye! THEY LOOK THE EXACT SAME I CAN'T TELL THE DIFFERENCE ANYMORE NOOOOOOZ And this also shows how long I have been out of kpop. Too long.

I've been procrastinating this back-to-kdrama post for quite a while and this is what I've been meaning to write.

There was a point in my life that Korean entertainment was an outlet for me to indulge it and at the same time, forget whatever problems I had at that moment. Basically, it was all dramas, songs, reality tv.... anything Korean. Real life had barely any space for me there. All I ever did was sleep, eat, go to school, get back home and watch whatever I could get my hands on. And watching these dramas, even though I felt happy, sad or angry, some of it I had yet to be able to relate it to my own life. Because technically, my life was what I pictured it to be in dramas (which no I do not want my life to be a drama any more)

Then I dropped out of what I call a 'phase'. Well, to me it is a phase, but I don't know about other people. I started working 6days/ week back then (that was in January 2011) and I absolutely had no time or energy to stay up and check on all the updates. So gradually, I lost the momentum of being in this scene. And then everything else caught up. I realized 'Wow, there is so much to do around me and yet here I am wishing that my beloved idols would know I exist'. (I still do get a thrill from seeing them in real life though) But then so, I knew it was time for me to grow up and see the world for myself, and not just through camera lenses. And so I did.

Now, watching this drama, it seems that my emotions are more controlled, no crazy screaming as of yet.... I think haha It's like I knew what will happen, I can predict it, and I also know that it might not happen in my life. I don't know how to phrase what I actually want to get to, I am really horrible at expressing myself now. Alright so, watching Heartstrings, sigh it's like I've been there, done that but the ending for me isn't the same yknow?

Okay I will end there because I really want to finish my drama!!!

Labels: bottomless pit kind of deep, k:drama

A: what it be mothafucka
Me: what it beeeeee
A: eh where are you at now?
Me: uhhhhh home?
A: you mean you never go to school at all?!?!
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAH ooooops yah
A: walao thought wanna take train home with you sia!
Me: HOME? WHAT HOME?
A: SINCE YOU HOME ALREADY, NO NEED LA. B Y E /hangs up

Ah, what nice friends I have hahahahahha

Labels: conversations

This song came on my shuffle and for once, I really looked into what the lyrics meant and I realised 'That sounds pretty much like me.'

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone, or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I have sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness.
Because none of it was ever worth the risk.
- The Only Exception, Paramore

The only difference between the song and me is that I have yet to find my 'only exception'. And I don't believe I ever will. Not anymore.

Love and long-lasting relationships among friends and family, yes that I do have some faith in. But between two people? Honestly in this day and age, it is really tough. You have to be totally in love with your other half and that's hard to come by. There are always other distracting factors.

And even if you say you love someone so much, how much is much? Even in Snow White, the King said he loved his wife so much that when she died he was devastated. But he forgot about his sorrows when he saw the beauty of Ravenna (the witch).

HOW HOW HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE HER SO MUCH WHEN YOUR HEART CAN BE SWAYED BY A STRANGER'S 'BEAUTY'? All lies I tell you. (ok fine Charlize Theron is gorgeous but that's still no excuse stupid king)

So yea, it's these nitty gritty things that made me lose my hope in ever being in a relationship at all. But fuck that shit cause I will be contented with marrying my career and adopting five cats haha

Here's to all who plans to be forever single, cheers
🍸🍸🍸

Labels: explanations, lyrics

Labels: 2NE1, bottomless pit kind of deep, gif, k:idol, what holidays again?

I seriously can't live without twitter. It is the source of my life in words, literally. And it keeps updating. And it's also my instant messaging, where I find my kpop updates, where I get to see what people are up to... I lied. Twitter's another platform for me to stalk people's inner thoughts. Facebook is where you see what they are up to, that is, if they update at all. I know a couple of people who just let it die like a rotting bug.


Talking about dying like a rotting bug, there is a fucking huge ass cockroach in my toilet. And truth be told, I am not such a huge fan of insects. LIAR AKI. LIAR. OK FINE. I am fucking terrified of insects, especially if they fly! Like omgaaaahhhhhd can you imagine this disgusting huge squishy thing that's crawling towards you and suddenly they're all like "I'LL SPREAD MY WINDS AND I'LL LEARN HOW TO FLYYYYY" into my face. No ok. Just... no. So to whoever who finds and actually reads this dust-collecting blog, you have found my weakness. Congratulations. Need confetti?


[02:07] @sunsetburn: unf he has rippled abs. I can't think sane. 
[02:08] @prettyscars: So don't you worry about, people hanging around, they ain't bringing us down.#nowplaying
[02:10] @sunsetburn: back to boy crazy but never actually serious for just one.
[02:19] @prettyscars: Keep your eyes focused this time, keep us in front of your sights #nowplaying
[02:21] @prettyscars: OMG IT IS 2:21 @sabzxs !!! HAHAHA
[02:21] @prettyscars: now people will know @sunsetburn exists cause of this blogpost
[02:22] @prettyscars: but oh hey heh it iz privateeeee :*
[02:29] @oheythr: am I late to this blog/twitter party?
[02:29] @oheythr: OHHH SO WHAT'D YOU DO TO MEE OHHHHH #nowplaying
[02:30] @prettyscars: @oheythr yes you are.
[02:30] @prettyscars: G O O D B A M
[02:31] @oheythr: @prettyscars Hoshiz hell no the party does not start without me!
[02:32] @oheythr: @prettyscars fug, sleeping already? WHAI WHAIIII!!!!!
[02:33] @sunsetburn: @oheythr just shut up will you.


I NEED TO WRITE A FIC NAO HAHAHHA OK BYE

Labels: twitter fails, wack crack and mack, what is this

This girl is partly insane I tell you. Hahah what would I do without her in my life man.

Labels: love

I wanted to write some meaningful long draggy post but I can't seem to put my vocabulary together in my head.

But you made me think. Think about everyone and their place in life. My life. (yes this will be extremely self-centered but HEY! Let's pretend you are the I/me/my/mine in this post ok? Then maybe relate it to your life somehow? Yeah end of, uhm, this)

Technically everyone has a place in your life. Everyone teaches you something. Even if it's not obvious, you would somehow learn something about life from then. Like 'hey I've learnt that there are people like this in the world who works like this and that' etc GET MY DRIFT?

So yeah, I don't mean it when I say I hate you, or imply it.... I might have condemned you to the deepest level of hell, (don't worry I don't specify which level when I condemn people to hell, saying 'GO TO THE DEEPEST LEVEL OF HELL YOU FOOOOOOOL' takes too much effort), but yeah uh I don't really mean it. Who am I to tell people where to go anyway? (GO GET ME BREAKFAST BITCH HAHAHAHAAH I'm kidding guise)

AH I LOST THE ESSENCE OF MY POST. HI THIS IS AKI'S UNNEEDED HUMOR COMING DOWN TO DESTROY THE SERIOUS POST PARTY YAY. /throws confettis /sets up banners /spray graffiti uh yah ok bai

p.s what even aki. what even. sigh.

Labels: Of which it does not make sense