I refuse to write in my diary anymore. All the feelings will just kaboosh out. And I've been training myself to keep everything in. That's how I cope with stuff, I keep it all to myself. So far all the things I've heard, the horrible news, they're all inside and I don't tell anyone. At all. But it's all so overwhelming. Very overwhelming. It's begging to be told to at least some other person. Just one person. But I can't seem to. The words aren't there.

Seriously, what's happening. Everything's just about as fine as it can be for me but I feel like bursting into tears. I am on one hell of an emotional roller coaster. I seriously am. Over the tiniest things. I like crying actually. But I'd hate being such a weak, emotional person. I'd like to let it all go. All of it. Maybe this is what life's about. I am such a wreck. Darn, I sound so (ew) emo. Darn it. Hell, fuck. Who cares. You seriously don't want to know what are my opinions. You'd hate me if you knew. Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer.

Cause I'm not like anyone of you. I'm know I'm not.
And I am sure, one day, I'm gonna puke all over you.
On purpose. Cause you irk me.>:}


Maybe I am overprotective even though I know I'm not supposed to be. Maybe.
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NEIGHHH. WHY AM I LISTENING TO ANGSTY/DEPRESSING SONGS. )x
Like: Why weren't you my Valentine? Why weren't you free? Why. See what I mean? Dayemn you LP. For once. And now I feel like posting up more lyrics. Sheet no, aki, don't nooo. Go to sleep you moron. Nao.

Labels: angsty, depressed, every bad feeling, JEALOUSY, overprotective, overwhelmed, secrets

I refuse to write in my diary anymore. All the feelings will just kaboosh out. And I've been training myself to keep everything in. That's how I cope with stuff, I keep it all to myself. So far all the things I've heard, the horrible news, they're all inside and I don't tell anyone. At all. But it's all so overwhelming. Very overwhelming. It's begging to be told to at least some other person. Just one person. But I can't seem to. The words aren't there.

Seriously, what's happening. Everything's just about as fine as it can be for me but I feel like bursting into tears. I am on one hell of an emotional roller coaster. I seriously am. Over the tiniest things. I like crying actually. But I'd hate being such a weak, emotional person. I'd like to let it all go. All of it. Maybe this is what life's about. I am such a wreck. Darn, I sound so (ew) emo. Darn it. Hell, fuck. Who cares. You seriously don't want to know what are my opinions. You'd hate me if you knew. Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer.

Cause I'm not like anyone of you. I'm know I'm not.
And I am sure, one day, I'm gonna puke all over you.
On purpose. Cause you irk me.>:}


Maybe I am overprotective even though I know I'm not supposed to be. Maybe.
-
NEIGHHH. WHY AM I LISTENING TO ANGSTY/DEPRESSING SONGS. )x
Like: Why weren't you my Valentine? Why weren't you free? Why. See what I mean? Dayemn you LP. For once. And now I feel like posting up more lyrics. Sheet no, aki, don't nooo. Go to sleep you moron. Nao.

Labels: angsty, depressed, every bad feeling, JEALOUSY, overprotective, overwhelmed, secrets