Park Shin Hye - Without Words

I'm sorry, but I am extremely annoyed. But you guys are prolly gonna skip over this and go straight to Sara's birthday post, wait let me rephrase that, please skip this part, I am just freaking out and need to let this go. I really liked our performance on YMC Pesta but the second part was just a big big screw up. I am so annoyed. I can't stop thinking about how we made a fool of ourselves with a song that people can't remember anymore. And the mics that wasn't working. Gr. Annoyed, annoyed. ANNOYED. But I really liked the dance, so I hope that cancelled out the bad parts. Just. So. Annoyed. Stop thinking about it Aki. Stop.

널 아예 보지말 걸 그랬나봐
넋이 나가버려 바보가 되버려
하늘만 보고 우니까
-말도 없이

Labels: annoyed, lyric(s), Park Shin Hye, You Are Beautiful

Since no one posted it up yet, and yes I want to flaunt the fact I can read Korean (even though I read Korean slowly, I CAN read it okay), I want to put my new found abilities to good use by romanizing Taeyang's wedding dress for others, so here it is.

Taeyang's Wedding Dress Romanized Lyrics:
"Some say it's not over 'till it's over
Guess this is really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

neda kuwa dat'ugo
daeron ku daeme urgo
h'imduro hardaemyon
nan himangur nugigo
amudo muruge mam a a ap'udo
ne chanun misumyon tu damdamhaechigo
nega honshina nae maumur argae dwargahwa
araporimayon urin morojige dwargahwa
nan shumur chugyo tu ibsunur gaemuro
jepar gurur dona naege ogir

Baby jepal gu e sonur chapjima
Coz you should be my lady
Oraen shidan gidaryo on nar
Dorapwajwo

noraega orimyon ijen gonun
guwa p'aengsaeng (i)hamge hajyo
onuri oji anhgirur
gurenggeda maeil pam gidohaessnundae

naega ibun wedding dress, oh no
naega ani chanha
Oh, naega ibun wedding dress

nae mamul mollachwassdan naega nomu miweso
gakkumun naega purhaenghagil nan paraesso

imi nae nunurun da ma, ma, marugo
poruchorom honja noege marhago
maeil pam gurengge puranhaessdan gol pumyonnan
irengge doergoran dal arassnan chido molla
nan nunul dama guchi absnan gumir gwo
chepal gurul dona naege odil

Baby jepal gu e sonur chapjima
Coz you should be my lady
Oraen shidan gidaryo on nar
Dorapwajwo

noraega orimyon ijen gonun
guwa p'aengsaeng (i)hamge hajyo
onuri oji anhgirur
gurenggeda maeil pam gidohaessnundae

naega ibun wedding dress, oh no
naega ani chanha
Oh, naega ibun wedding dress

pudi guwa haengbokhae
norul itjul su issge
nae churahaessdan musibdul da ijo chwo
pirug han donganun na
chonulmank'um hini dulgessjiman

No, oh

namu oraen shidanul chandan soge
ollu pabochorom salasschyo
achindu nul gunyonun
nal pogo saehayohge usgu issnundae

naege ibun wedding dress
Oh, no
naege ibun wedding dress"

You can find the Korean and English here.
I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED HAHAHA. Oh sorry for any mistakes okay, I didn't check twice. And it's exactly midnight, according to my phone, my brain doesn't work well at this time... and explains my awful eyebags grrr. (I hope I've contributed to the non-Korean speaking Kpop fandom :D) Hee hee 8D

Labels: lyric(s), Taeyang

Labels: Hey Monday, lyric(s), song(s)

I know I said I was going to go off, ah pooh. Anyway, lol, thanks ah Maisarah for spamming me with your letters ah. Hahah you call me Kak Aki! Kak Aki sounds so farney but haha okay, Kak Aki will do :D Cause Kak Atiqah will make me sound so... boring? Bleagh and common too, common!

For the umpteenth time, (Let's make it colourful ;D)

Note to self: I miss you terribly
This is what we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, come back to me
To me.

I can feel my mind wandering again,
Into where I don't know, will I ever get home?
Time starts moving faster than I can.
I'm so sick of this scene, I need to break this routine.

; Note To Self - From First To Last

I've feature these lyrics countless times cause they describe exactly how I feel. The other significant song would be -

Keep your eyes focused this time,
Keep us in front of your sights,
I've waited long for this, now it's our time for bliss.
I just hope we have the time.
I stand broken, please god hear my cries.
He does everytime.

How many times have you watched me fall just to smile?
I've been through thick and thin we've struggled through.
Now we smile.
So we're here now, just be ready.
Brace yourself cause were not leaving.

; Rise Up - Bless The Fall

It's nice no? Okay now I am really going to sleep. MUST.
Don't you get it?
At all?

Labels: lyric(s), Note To Self, Rise Up

It's nice to relisten all the songs you used to listen to. And then you find what you're looking for, a song to describe your murderous feeling heh.
Here's to the friends that were alibis:
Firstly, I love the whole emo feeling to it. Don't ask me why. It's just. Whoa. And the words are superbly murderous/suicidal. Heh. And the song is called Cellar Door by Escape The Fate. I am not asking you to go hear you know. >:) Oh oh oh, MSA2, I've got awesome news! Contact me asap!!! (Esp SABBBBBBB.)

Labels: lyric(s), murderous

You have to watch this. TOKIO HOTEL ♥♥♥♥♥ His voice is superb, his guitaring is superb. The only thing I am irritated is his hair. Okay enough of that, but still, FUYIOH. POWER! They're German by the way, that's why he can't pronounce his 'r' properly :D

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane

I've been waiting here so long
But now the moment seems to come,
I see the black clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

A half moon's fading from my sight
I see a vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I loose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey! Hey!

I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it send me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

Labels: lyric(s), song(s), Tokio Hotel, video(s)

China people!
Front row (L-R): Pang Jun (sp?), Audrey, Meiyi, Dini, Afiqah, Me, Syahirah
Back row (L-R): Charmaine (sp?) Kaimin, Trixy, Bernice, Cindy (sp?), Joey, Nishan, Jannatul, See Wei
Not in picture: Amelia, Xin Mei, Irfanah
Angklung angklung angklung! WHEEEE~I'm not pissed you all didn't come. Not just you, all of you. No I'm not pissed. I am just very disappointed. This is my one and only Musical Evening and you can't make it. None of you could. And the funny part is I could have sworn I told you a month ago. Oh yes I did, check the old posts. Awesome. Awesome kemawesome. Heels kill me. Argh. Yes, I was wearing heels, and make up, but too bad you ALL weren't there to see me in such an awkward state. I am very sad and disappointed that all my best and close friends can't make it. Don't talk to me for now. I have family matters to settle. I guess I shouldn't bother inviting you to my drama performance in Feb next year. Well, how ironic. (You didn't come for Penantian either.) OO: I AM DISAPPOINTED. HAHA OMG I TALK LIKE SOME SUICIDAL EMO WHO BELIEVES THAT HER BEST FRIEND IS HER DIARY.

"Dear Diary, Mood: Apathetic.... blah blah blah.... You're the only one that gets me diary. You're my best friend. :::D" HAHAHAHAHA!

I guess I should like open up a photoblog, for all my photos. I had one, but it was er, very twit and the blogskin is like eeyer. So after major revamps sooner or later, then maybe I'll open it up and post ALL my photos. Insya'allah.

Haha, photo count!
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China trip - 275 Items, (Only) Done. ::::D
Hari Raya 2g1'08 - 114 Items. (maybe one day after O's. LAWL.)
Musical Evening - 99 Items.
Hari Raya at mom's- 97 Items. (who cares anyway.)
Deeparaya- 67 Items.
Malay Class buka (Damn outdated) - 24 Items.
Haha okay, I'll find the time to upload them all. And yes, for entertainment purposes, I shall even put up the unglam pics of me. Be thankful. -.-

Have some composure. Oh, it's here all right.
Where is your posture? I don't know and I don't care.
Oh no no! Oh yes.
You're pulling the trigger,
pulling the trigger all wrong!
As long as the person getting hit by the bullet dies. I'm fine with it.

MY. SISTER. IS. BEING. SUCH. A. ___________.

Labels: comments, lyric(s), Musical Evening, picture(s), toot

Hai, I owe you people the lyrics of my awesomatic blogsongs. (Main points in bold.)



Hospital

You pull the trigger on your own
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital

Now will you ever rest your head
You end up feeling mostly dead
Pretending you're the last one
Hiding with your eyes shut tight on the way to the hospital

[Refrain:]
Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars

It never used to hurt before, it isn't funny anymore
Feeling so alone now funny how you wish some way that you'll die at the hospital

You're quiet on the car ride home, you're waiting for your head to explode
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital

[Refrain]

Will you look them in the face
Could you look me in the face?
Three cheers you fooled them all [x2]
Come on, hip hip hooray



TUNNEL

I set out alone,
Crawl through the tunnel,
My eyes can hardly see the other side,
No longer cold,
Or feeling in trouble,
I realize that I am just alive....
So let it shine,

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world,
We are the light in the tunnel,
That's all.....

Moving so slow, towards the end of the tunnel
I don't pretend I'll see the other side
I trudge through the mud
I push through the rubble
To realize that I am just alive
So let it shine

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel

The world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
But we will be leaving this world
Yeah, the world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
Do we believe in this world?

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....


Haha, okay done. Sorry for the vulgarities in the last song ah.

Labels: lyric(s), The Used

oh no. Literature FYE's tomorrow and I have yet to study. I think I'm gonna die. Darn it Internet. Why are you so bloody distracting? Seriously.

"It's in your head, all the voices mistaken.
Shake it off, shake it off.
We're all dying in the end."

I CANNOT GO ATREYU CONCERT IN SINGAPORE ON 8NOV, I GOING CHINA DDDDDDDDDDD: Aw shuckzxzxz.

Bang!
And I'm gone.
ILYH

Labels: FYE, Literature, lyric(s), Macbeth, stressed

Don't you think Quinn Allman is hot?(Haha, he looks a bit like H. Especially the hair part.)
And I think Theoretical Girl is very pretty too. I love her dress.
Haha, Niveetha and Nishan make such a weird pair. Yesterday, they fought using paint, today, blue pens. xD I finished my dedication letter to Hui Wei, I think I did it damned cooled. Not to be ego, but yes. It was a very pretty dedication letter, okay. All green. :D Darn it, Internet connection is bloody slow here.

People, listen to Pretty Handsome Awkward by The Used. Then listen to Honor by Atreyu. Their beginnings are eeriely similar. From Honor: "Like a whisper to the dusk. An oath against the shadows, denying the dark. Like a prayer unto the dawn. in arms against the shadows, destroying the dark."

OMFGZZ, I created a whole new playlist of songs! Haha, it's too cool for you. And it has only 24 songs :DDD

1. Pretty Handsome Awkward - The Used.
2. Honor - Atreyu
3. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
4. Sugar, We're Going Down - Fall Out Boy
5. 7 Things - Miley Cyrus
6. The Bird & The Worm - The Used
7. Birds Neil Young - Theoretical Girl
8. Black Dying Rose (Piano Intro) - Bless The Fall
   
9. Here - Hungry Cloud
10. Minuet - From First To Last
11. Oh, It Is Love - Hellogoodbye
12. Dead! - My Chemical Romance
13. Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam
14. That's Not My Name - The Ting Tings
15. Still Figuring Out - Eliot Minor
    
16. Beat It - Fall Out Boy
17. Silver Bullet (Acoustic) - Hawthorne Heights
18. Smoke And Mirrors - Ipso Facto
19. Pushing Me Away (Live) (Piano Version) -Linkin Park
20. Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse
21. Monsters - Matchbook Romance
22. You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison - My Chemical Romance
23. Face Down (Acoustic) - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
24. The Remembrance Ballad (The String Quartet Tribute) - Atreyu

"We're going down down in an earlier round,
and sugar, we're going down swinging.
I'll be your number one with a bullet,
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it."

Labels: lyric(s), picture(s), playlist, Quinn Allman, Theoretical Girl

HAHA, OMG, yesterday was the BOMB! Had YMC, CSP planning thing. Us, Crescentians, went high at the field behing the building. THERE WAS A FIELD THAT WE DIDN'T KNOW EXISTED! :OOO In my group there were me, Alyssa, Dini, Sara, Sitifa and Nurul. We totally won the most votes. Haha, baik ar! Then group two and seven tied and thus, we are gonna do THREE projects! YAY YAY YAY!

Did I mention I kept on singing Jason Mraz's I'm Yours and Miley Cyrus's 7 Things the whole day, especially Jason Mraz's I'm Yours. Then while I was singing that at the lobby, something awkward happened. (Hanisah, you gotta know.) Then I kepo-ed in Alyssa and all kena ambik gambar. Hehe, just say I'm awesomeexzxz.

Then after that me, Sara, Ameera, Farah, Nazihah, Alisa, Kamal, Zainul, Hadi, Fahmy(?), Izhar, Hakiim, Muhammad, Haziq and Hafeez took bus to Parkway Parade. Then I think Hafeez went home cause I didn't see him around after awhile. Haha, so anyway, me and Sara went to arcade awhile after Farah, Ameera and the RI guys had gone there. I OWNED HAKIIM, IZHAR AND FARAH AT RACING. How cool is that? I beat TWO guys at racing. HA.

Haha, so me and Ameera met Shaleen first at Macs. Then Farah belanjered me since she owes me Birthday present. :DD Ate Grilled Chicken foldover and gave Shaleen whats left of my foldover - the greens. They gave me like a damn lot la. Haha, so Farah and Shaleen were fighting whether Rei/ Ray/ Wei (an RI rugger) had toned legs/ was hot. And they were kabooming Izhar with questions. Hilarious shizx. Izhar had like weird expressions throughout. HAHA.

Then Izhar said that that person had the same kinda legs as Shaleen and from then onwards, Shaleen kept on looking at her legs. "Eh, my legs very ugly, how can be the same?" Haha, go Sheen! I totally forgot everything else that had happened there. Okay, maybe not.

Then after that Shaleen had to go off first. The rest took a bus to Geylang and after that, everyone else went off except Farah, me, Sara, Izhar, Muhd, Hakiim and Haziq. The guys went solat first. And after that, we walked all the way since I heard someone wanted to buy food. After we got to all the makan makan place, we bought only three cups of drinks. *hjlskahuohdfsajbanbdsbjfk*

Haha, so Farah called her Bibik and said that we could go her house! YAY. All of us watched Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. Damn cool I tell you. The last time I saw that movie was when I was 6? Haha, I realised I haven't watched the ending before. At all. Very weird considering I can remember the first part quite well. So as we were watching the movie, Hakiim kena syiok tidur on the armchair. And when we were about to leave, Izhar was patting him on the leg to wake him up.

Hakiim kinda shook Izhar's hand off. HAHA. Then after 10 seconds worth of trying to wake him up, finally Hakiim woke up and had that blur look. Damn kelakar! Farah's mom and nenek just got home when we went out of Farah's house. Haha, I noticed Farah's nenek is the ONLY adult that calls me aki. Then as we were walking to the bus stop, Hakiim was still half dead. xD Hakiim: Aku mati mati fikir aku tidur kat rumah aku.

HAHA, baik ar tu. Then blahblahblah, reached home at around 11.30pm. Slept at almost one. O.O But I told my dad I got home at 10.30. So ssssh. Okay done with yesterday.
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"I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted."

"And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do - you make me love you."

Maybe I shouldn't blog about this but my sister's getting kicked out of the house. I am not going to cry. I am not. For my family's sake and myself, I'll be strong. Like I have always been since I was eleven.

Labels: blur, buka luar, emotional relapse, Farah's house, Geylang, happy, hinthint, late night, lyric(s), Macs(:, Parkway Parade, racing, sexy legs, sister, YMC

Today was unfruitful. Nak mug Geog tak jadi.I got distracted. Not my problem. XD HAHA. So anyway, I was giving out free PINK post-its to everyone I know who was there. And on those post-its were stupid messages. Yes, mainly because I was bloody bored. But why PINK? Ahhh, that is because, I was lazy to take out any other colours. I have blue, green and yellow too. Haha, I'm a post-it maniac. So what? XD

Oh and haha, after that me, Sara and Mur went 484. There we saw all those budak budak sana la. Indra was like damn funny. Just for the record, I wasn't flirting with your guy.

Mur: Indra! Your boxers! Astaraghfirullah.
Indra: Aaaaaaaaaah! *Pulls pants up really high,waistline there*
Me, Sara, Mur: Whaaaat. HAAAAHAAAAA.

Indra damn funny seh. Haha. I was a psycho today, very stalkerish/ obsessed. Sorry ah. It's been too long. XD AHEM. I buka-ed outside tooo. Ate BBQ Beef, damn nice. Haha, okay. I GOT MY PHONE BACK. BYEBYE. Ngantuk ah.
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At least you’ll have my heart.
You know you shine so bright.

Tonight, we fly away so high,
Tonight, We fly away.
You know the moon is full and,
I can't live without you.

Silver Bullet
- Hawthorne Heights

Labels: 484, lyric(s)

Do you people who talk to me a lot or not realize something? I never use the common phrase LOL. Nope not once. My dad banned me from using it when I just got my hand phone way back in 2006. Yup. Sad but true. And right now, I'm kinda proud cause I barely use slang :D According to dad, LOL means Living Out Loud (and not Laugh Out Loud as you people would say) aka being gay or lesbian or stuff. That's why I can't use it. See I'm such a good girl :D I follow daddy's word. And dad says I can't have boyfriend till I get a stable job. I guess that's gonna be true. I love my dad :D

Today is like SLACK day. Damn the boring. I woke up at ten thirty, bathed, used internet for a while, watched teevee for a while, use internet again, went to sleep till three thirty or four, watched teevee, ate and used internet. HAHA. Lazy sunday mornings and nights. :/ At this rate ah, I think I'll gain weight. And I already like my flat tummy :} There you go Salwa(:

I'm going Ramadhan Rocks camp! WHOO. Mum says GO LA. Dad says ANYTHING. So, that means a resonating YES. It beats sitting at home doing nothing and fainting is worth a try. *shrugs* :D I plan not to faint. HELLYEA.
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"When you see me fly away without you,
shattered on the things you know,
feathers fall around you,
and show you the way to go, it's over.
It's over."
I guess you stand a better chance than me.
Good luck to you then :)

I am still debating whether I should laugh or cry.
I love Theoretical Girl.

Labels: ban, boring day, camp, dad, heartbroken, irony, LOL, lyric(s), obsession dying, slack day

SNIFFLE SNIFFLE.
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I can't seem to cool down. Another thing just occurred to me. My phone got bloody confiscated. Don't ask. So most probably, if you see this post at night, then most probably you got the password already. And yeah, don't tell anyone okay? They have to ask me personally(:
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Today's a disaster. I've been sneezing ever since school started at seven this morning and I'm still sneezing. It sucks. During exam, my eyes and nose was red. It totally sucked. Then sniffled sniffled all the way through Malay exam, self study time, recess and Literature exam. All I needed was a good rest, but no, on the bus, Adee just had to disturb me. Ass.

Nishan said I should have gone home after Mother Tongue exam, but I refused, since I hate seeing empty slots in my report card. Now I think I should have. I'm still sniffling. And I have taken Clarinase, ohmygod, hate this sickness. My mail is taking freaking forever to load. Which so totally sucks too. Argh. I hope I'll be well by tomorrow because it's math and science exam bebbeh.
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You haven't been online lately. Yeah, you were on Sunday, but someone else was using my laptop, so I couldn't talk to you. Darn, the obsession's back. I want to see you.
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"Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind, she's fallen behind.

She can't find her place, she's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place."

Labels: common tests, lyric(s), random, unwell

Hello. Here to make a short speech.

I don't wish to get involved in your little catfights. Nor do you dare pull me into your bitchfests. If you do, I swear, I will blow up with all of you who started this little bitch shit. Stop arguing. I've had bloody enough. If I do blow up, don't say "Oh no! THERE SHE GOES... again." Let me tell you something missy(s), I have never ever gotten angry this year by friends. Family, yes. Friends, NO. Don't let this be another start of my screaming spree. Let me warn you first. Drag me in and you die die die. And that's the end of our friendship, understood? If you don't then too bad. Miss me while you can. Note, and while you're at it, don't you have secrets to confess?

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"Hold on, feeling like I'm heading for a breakdown"
And Salwa, sorry I lied babe, I really am gonna be depressed. I didn't want to you to know.

Labels: breakdown, emotional relapse, lyric(s), pissed, rant

Yo. I'm back with pictures. Of the kenduri on Saturday(: THANKS TO DIAN for the pictures ^^-captions above pictures
3 little pigs XDNow, 3 not-so-little girls(:HA, adee's face got cut out.Feminine? Riiiiight.
Other pics are damn unglam. So yeah. And more coming soon. It's still in mummy's pretty green camera and mummy has yet to email them all to me(: Oh and here's for you guys. One of my kiddie pictures.

It was taken at the airport, Terminal Two, I think, when I was nine. I am the one sitting in the middle and my younger sister's the one on the right. For your information, I was wearing a white Barbie doll tee with pink sleeves and a red checkered Hello Kitty dress on top. My sister was wearing a blue denim dress with flowers all over. I miss those days D:-
To you, I'm sorry. I really am. But I don't want to keep secrets anymore. I really don't want to. It friggin sucks. I don't think we can still be close friends this way but I hope we can still keep in contact. THIS. FRIGGIN. SUCKS. I sure as hell will miss hanging out with you. Sad to say, the show must go on. Talking about shows, astalavista babes. The show's over if I fail Geography common test badly. So right now, hardcore Geog mug. (Baik ar, exam starts at 11 later.)
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"Why the hell you go and make things so complicated?"

Labels: lyric(s), picture(s), rant

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

[Chorus:]
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

[Chorus]

How do you think I’ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to

[x2]
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside

[Chorus x2]
-Linkin Park, By Myself.

In crowds just don't know a thing about being on the sidelines. Watching them, trying to be them. They don't know. And I guess, they'll never learn.

Labels: Linkin Park, lyric(s), pissed

The letter has a second edition. But this time. It's really silly. I swear. 'The person who wrote this letter' = the person sitting behind me. So I know. Too bad for you non gee-oners. You won't know who. HAHA.
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1) I am so short. I hate being short. I HATE BEING SHORT. I am a mere 147 cm. A MERE 147 CM. C'mon friggin primary fives are taller than me. I hate being short. I want to be tall tall TALL. Tall enough. My ideal height is 1.6. BUT NOOOO, I just had to be wayyyy shorter than that. I'm the shortest. I don't want to be shortest. Darn genes. DARN DARN DARN. Last time, I would say, it's okay. But now, NO. Being short has a lot of disadvantages and so few advantages. ARGH. I want to grow tall fast. Get me a skipping rope.

2) Thursdays. The worst days of the week. Firstly, there's Design and Technology first thing in the damned morning. I swear it's so boring. There'll be a hundred percent chance more than half the class will fall asleep if the teacher's weren't so strict. No offense. And please for god's sake, the lessons are practically lullabies. Ohmygod. Oh and there's this thing called Computer Studies where we are made to sit in the freezing cold and do software related stuff such as Flash and Dreamweaver. And expected to compile everything we know of it to create a excellent PBL website. COME ON. Internet is fishing distracting. Oh and then there's PBL, which, hellyeah, you guessed it, we are supposed to continue on with our PBL website. How great.

I still love Malay classes and Angklung & Kulintang though ^^
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EH EH EH, PLEEEEAAAAAAASE HAVE YMC GATHERING! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME AFTER NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS AND I MISS SHALEEN ALOTSXZXZX AND I MISS ALOT OF OTHER PEOPLE ALSO. SO PLEEEEAAASE! DON'T CANCEL ON ME D:
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"I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix,
I can't take it.
Just one more hit,
I promise I can deal with it.

I'll handle it,
fix it.
Just one more time,
then that's it.
Just a little bit more to get me through this."
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Psycho.

Labels: addicted, lyric(s), outing, rant, YMC

Hey, I see. I haven't blogged for two days. How cool. :D I'm a hardcore blogger. HAHA. Okay yeah. Yesterday went to RI vs Saints Rugby at Yio Chu Kang. Met up with Farah, intended to wit for Mur but in the end we ciao-ed first. So yeah, after awhile Mur, Kak Feena came. Then awhile after that again, Alisa and Nazihah came. Haha, yeap. Don't ask who won. Eh, you guys all, Izhar, Alif and Haziq, cheer up okay? I don't like seeing people cry. Reminds me of... stuff. So yeah, cheer up :)
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I'm hungry, I didn't eat during recess. Just to save money for this Friday. And I need new school shoes. My Gallaz skate shoes are torn. So is my P6 badminton shoes. I need new shoes. Get me Pallaz ones. They look cute. :D Oh and I need a new school bag too. It's a horrendous shade of white that does not even look white. Please please please.

Why the hell am I complaining when I am much luckier than most others who live in LDC such as India and Africa? Be grateful. But I still NEED new shoes and bag. Oh while I'm at it, get me some Signo pens for my exams. Kaythanksbye.
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Ah. I'm a total psycho. I still remember the fireworks. I'm writing in random sentences so that you won't figure what I'm saying. I miss a lot of people. My TPC wireless is still not fixed yet. *CURSES* I'm using Xin Yi's. Thanks ah! Oh and Design and Tech homework is still not done yet. But I don't want to do. Can I absent myself tomorrow? We might be getting class tees today. HAHA. yeah so Bye.
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"I want to live in paradise."

Labels: lyric(s), match, needs, psycho, random

The only time you ever have to look up to see me.
Naz: "Woah aki, I'm actually looking UP at you."HAHA! SATURDAY WAS SO FUN! YAY! I went to North View Primary along with Farah, Nazihah, Firdaus, Hakiim, Danish, Idris, Hafeez, Siddeeq, Amzar, Farhan and Amzar. Okay I think that's all. Sorry ah if I forgot to write/ type your name here. Yeah and I made a lot of new friends! PRIMARY FIVER-s! HA. And Diyana, they are way cooler than ya. xP Haha, met Tiffany, Joey, Sarah, Sufi, Joseph, Alifah, Serene, Leshma and Dwika. I swear, Dwika is such a cool name. Haha, I mean D-W-I-K-A. Damn unique! (THE FRIGGIN TAXI DRIVER CHEATED US.)

Haha, okay after that whole elephant drama thing, around afternoon, we just went to have fun around the school. The guys played dodgeball while a few of us went with Sufi as he had to apologise to Sarah. Aw, damn cute man. :D then after that went back to the enclosed court. I wanted to play dodgeball but in the end didn't because none of the girls wanted to. Baik ar. Anyway, I'd feel weird being the only Secondary Two girl playing among small kids and guys. Ah, heck. But at least I sweated it out at a very fun game of merepek volleyball with Joey, Tiffany and Sarah. So badadadum and ciao-ed the school.

Then the guys went to play the monkey bars and girls went to hide under shade along with Tiff and Sarah. And when the guys went in, Farah, armed with my deodorant, sprayed every single person we knew who walked in. except Amzar. The sun was hidden behind the fluffy white clouds for awhile and we girls went to serang the monkey bars. I swung myself up onto the monkey bars. I was sitting on top of the thing. HAHA. Yay! One advantage of being a super hyper monkey when I was small. WHOOO.

After a whole afternoon with them, I went to NDP Preview. I got ticket from LuKhei. Note: TICKET. So yeah, I sat alone, since XinYi came in early and had first row seats. Ah, nevermind. I made the best out of it. And the motivators, okay some, were like super cute. HAHA. Sheesh. What girl talk on blog ah? Damn merepek english. XD Oh and I screamed cause I wanted to lose my voice.

Went home alone, and Tiffany called me! I told about SOME stuff which no, I'm not telling you guys. But she say she CAN and WILL come Crescent! SO COOL RIGHT? Like later, I'm Sec 4 then she, Sec1 knows me a Sec4, HAHA! COOL!!! Pictures are all on Farah's blog.
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SHOOT, I WANTED TO GO TO SINGFEST. WHY NEVER AJAK ME?!?! D:
Okay, tada. ADIOS. Strapped for time.
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"And as we wind on down the road,
our shadows taller than our souls."
Yes, I do listen to Led Zeppelin.

Labels: CIP, lyric(s), NDP Preview, NVPS, SingFest

Park Shin Hye - Without Words

I'm sorry, but I am extremely annoyed. But you guys are prolly gonna skip over this and go straight to Sara's birthday post, wait let me rephrase that, please skip this part, I am just freaking out and need to let this go. I really liked our performance on YMC Pesta but the second part was just a big big screw up. I am so annoyed. I can't stop thinking about how we made a fool of ourselves with a song that people can't remember anymore. And the mics that wasn't working. Gr. Annoyed, annoyed. ANNOYED. But I really liked the dance, so I hope that cancelled out the bad parts. Just. So. Annoyed. Stop thinking about it Aki. Stop.

널 아예 보지말 걸 그랬나봐
넋이 나가버려 바보가 되버려
하늘만 보고 우니까
-말도 없이

Labels: annoyed, lyric(s), Park Shin Hye, You Are Beautiful

Since no one posted it up yet, and yes I want to flaunt the fact I can read Korean (even though I read Korean slowly, I CAN read it okay), I want to put my new found abilities to good use by romanizing Taeyang's wedding dress for others, so here it is.

Taeyang's Wedding Dress Romanized Lyrics:
"Some say it's not over 'till it's over
Guess this is really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

neda kuwa dat'ugo
daeron ku daeme urgo
h'imduro hardaemyon
nan himangur nugigo
amudo muruge mam a a ap'udo
ne chanun misumyon tu damdamhaechigo
nega honshina nae maumur argae dwargahwa
araporimayon urin morojige dwargahwa
nan shumur chugyo tu ibsunur gaemuro
jepar gurur dona naege ogir

Baby jepal gu e sonur chapjima
Coz you should be my lady
Oraen shidan gidaryo on nar
Dorapwajwo

noraega orimyon ijen gonun
guwa p'aengsaeng (i)hamge hajyo
onuri oji anhgirur
gurenggeda maeil pam gidohaessnundae

naega ibun wedding dress, oh no
naega ani chanha
Oh, naega ibun wedding dress

nae mamul mollachwassdan naega nomu miweso
gakkumun naega purhaenghagil nan paraesso

imi nae nunurun da ma, ma, marugo
poruchorom honja noege marhago
maeil pam gurengge puranhaessdan gol pumyonnan
irengge doergoran dal arassnan chido molla
nan nunul dama guchi absnan gumir gwo
chepal gurul dona naege odil

Baby jepal gu e sonur chapjima
Coz you should be my lady
Oraen shidan gidaryo on nar
Dorapwajwo

noraega orimyon ijen gonun
guwa p'aengsaeng (i)hamge hajyo
onuri oji anhgirur
gurenggeda maeil pam gidohaessnundae

naega ibun wedding dress, oh no
naega ani chanha
Oh, naega ibun wedding dress

pudi guwa haengbokhae
norul itjul su issge
nae churahaessdan musibdul da ijo chwo
pirug han donganun na
chonulmank'um hini dulgessjiman

No, oh

namu oraen shidanul chandan soge
ollu pabochorom salasschyo
achindu nul gunyonun
nal pogo saehayohge usgu issnundae

naege ibun wedding dress
Oh, no
naege ibun wedding dress"

You can find the Korean and English here.
I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED HAHAHA. Oh sorry for any mistakes okay, I didn't check twice. And it's exactly midnight, according to my phone, my brain doesn't work well at this time... and explains my awful eyebags grrr. (I hope I've contributed to the non-Korean speaking Kpop fandom :D) Hee hee 8D

Labels: lyric(s), Taeyang

Labels: Hey Monday, lyric(s), song(s)

I know I said I was going to go off, ah pooh. Anyway, lol, thanks ah Maisarah for spamming me with your letters ah. Hahah you call me Kak Aki! Kak Aki sounds so farney but haha okay, Kak Aki will do :D Cause Kak Atiqah will make me sound so... boring? Bleagh and common too, common!

For the umpteenth time, (Let's make it colourful ;D)

Note to self: I miss you terribly
This is what we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, come back to me
To me.

I can feel my mind wandering again,
Into where I don't know, will I ever get home?
Time starts moving faster than I can.
I'm so sick of this scene, I need to break this routine.

; Note To Self - From First To Last

I've feature these lyrics countless times cause they describe exactly how I feel. The other significant song would be -

Keep your eyes focused this time,
Keep us in front of your sights,
I've waited long for this, now it's our time for bliss.
I just hope we have the time.
I stand broken, please god hear my cries.
He does everytime.

How many times have you watched me fall just to smile?
I've been through thick and thin we've struggled through.
Now we smile.
So we're here now, just be ready.
Brace yourself cause were not leaving.

; Rise Up - Bless The Fall

It's nice no? Okay now I am really going to sleep. MUST.
Don't you get it?
At all?

Labels: lyric(s), Note To Self, Rise Up

It's nice to relisten all the songs you used to listen to. And then you find what you're looking for, a song to describe your murderous feeling heh.
Here's to the friends that were alibis:
Firstly, I love the whole emo feeling to it. Don't ask me why. It's just. Whoa. And the words are superbly murderous/suicidal. Heh. And the song is called Cellar Door by Escape The Fate. I am not asking you to go hear you know. >:) Oh oh oh, MSA2, I've got awesome news! Contact me asap!!! (Esp SABBBBBBB.)

Labels: lyric(s), murderous

You have to watch this. TOKIO HOTEL ♥♥♥♥♥ His voice is superb, his guitaring is superb. The only thing I am irritated is his hair. Okay enough of that, but still, FUYIOH. POWER! They're German by the way, that's why he can't pronounce his 'r' properly :D

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane

I've been waiting here so long
But now the moment seems to come,
I see the black clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

A half moon's fading from my sight
I see a vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I loose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey! Hey!

I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it send me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

Labels: lyric(s), song(s), Tokio Hotel, video(s)

China people!
Front row (L-R): Pang Jun (sp?), Audrey, Meiyi, Dini, Afiqah, Me, Syahirah
Back row (L-R): Charmaine (sp?) Kaimin, Trixy, Bernice, Cindy (sp?), Joey, Nishan, Jannatul, See Wei
Not in picture: Amelia, Xin Mei, Irfanah
Angklung angklung angklung! WHEEEE~I'm not pissed you all didn't come. Not just you, all of you. No I'm not pissed. I am just very disappointed. This is my one and only Musical Evening and you can't make it. None of you could. And the funny part is I could have sworn I told you a month ago. Oh yes I did, check the old posts. Awesome. Awesome kemawesome. Heels kill me. Argh. Yes, I was wearing heels, and make up, but too bad you ALL weren't there to see me in such an awkward state. I am very sad and disappointed that all my best and close friends can't make it. Don't talk to me for now. I have family matters to settle. I guess I shouldn't bother inviting you to my drama performance in Feb next year. Well, how ironic. (You didn't come for Penantian either.) OO: I AM DISAPPOINTED. HAHA OMG I TALK LIKE SOME SUICIDAL EMO WHO BELIEVES THAT HER BEST FRIEND IS HER DIARY.

"Dear Diary, Mood: Apathetic.... blah blah blah.... You're the only one that gets me diary. You're my best friend. :::D" HAHAHAHAHA!

I guess I should like open up a photoblog, for all my photos. I had one, but it was er, very twit and the blogskin is like eeyer. So after major revamps sooner or later, then maybe I'll open it up and post ALL my photos. Insya'allah.

Haha, photo count!
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China trip - 275 Items, (Only) Done. ::::D
Hari Raya 2g1'08 - 114 Items. (maybe one day after O's. LAWL.)
Musical Evening - 99 Items.
Hari Raya at mom's- 97 Items. (who cares anyway.)
Deeparaya- 67 Items.
Malay Class buka (Damn outdated) - 24 Items.
Haha okay, I'll find the time to upload them all. And yes, for entertainment purposes, I shall even put up the unglam pics of me. Be thankful. -.-

Have some composure. Oh, it's here all right.
Where is your posture? I don't know and I don't care.
Oh no no! Oh yes.
You're pulling the trigger,
pulling the trigger all wrong!
As long as the person getting hit by the bullet dies. I'm fine with it.

MY. SISTER. IS. BEING. SUCH. A. ___________.

Labels: comments, lyric(s), Musical Evening, picture(s), toot

Hai, I owe you people the lyrics of my awesomatic blogsongs. (Main points in bold.)



Hospital

You pull the trigger on your own
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital

Now will you ever rest your head
You end up feeling mostly dead
Pretending you're the last one
Hiding with your eyes shut tight on the way to the hospital

[Refrain:]
Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars

It never used to hurt before, it isn't funny anymore
Feeling so alone now funny how you wish some way that you'll die at the hospital

You're quiet on the car ride home, you're waiting for your head to explode
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital

[Refrain]

Will you look them in the face
Could you look me in the face?
Three cheers you fooled them all [x2]
Come on, hip hip hooray



TUNNEL

I set out alone,
Crawl through the tunnel,
My eyes can hardly see the other side,
No longer cold,
Or feeling in trouble,
I realize that I am just alive....
So let it shine,

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world,
We are the light in the tunnel,
That's all.....

Moving so slow, towards the end of the tunnel
I don't pretend I'll see the other side
I trudge through the mud
I push through the rubble
To realize that I am just alive
So let it shine

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel

The world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
But we will be leaving this world
Yeah, the world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
Do we believe in this world?

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....


Haha, okay done. Sorry for the vulgarities in the last song ah.

Labels: lyric(s), The Used

oh no. Literature FYE's tomorrow and I have yet to study. I think I'm gonna die. Darn it Internet. Why are you so bloody distracting? Seriously.

"It's in your head, all the voices mistaken.
Shake it off, shake it off.
We're all dying in the end."

I CANNOT GO ATREYU CONCERT IN SINGAPORE ON 8NOV, I GOING CHINA DDDDDDDDDDD: Aw shuckzxzxz.

Bang!
And I'm gone.
ILYH

Labels: FYE, Literature, lyric(s), Macbeth, stressed

Don't you think Quinn Allman is hot?(Haha, he looks a bit like H. Especially the hair part.)
And I think Theoretical Girl is very pretty too. I love her dress.
Haha, Niveetha and Nishan make such a weird pair. Yesterday, they fought using paint, today, blue pens. xD I finished my dedication letter to Hui Wei, I think I did it damned cooled. Not to be ego, but yes. It was a very pretty dedication letter, okay. All green. :D Darn it, Internet connection is bloody slow here.

People, listen to Pretty Handsome Awkward by The Used. Then listen to Honor by Atreyu. Their beginnings are eeriely similar. From Honor: "Like a whisper to the dusk. An oath against the shadows, denying the dark. Like a prayer unto the dawn. in arms against the shadows, destroying the dark."

OMFGZZ, I created a whole new playlist of songs! Haha, it's too cool for you. And it has only 24 songs :DDD

1. Pretty Handsome Awkward - The Used.
2. Honor - Atreyu
3. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
4. Sugar, We're Going Down - Fall Out Boy
5. 7 Things - Miley Cyrus
6. The Bird & The Worm - The Used
7. Birds Neil Young - Theoretical Girl
8. Black Dying Rose (Piano Intro) - Bless The Fall
   
9. Here - Hungry Cloud
10. Minuet - From First To Last
11. Oh, It Is Love - Hellogoodbye
12. Dead! - My Chemical Romance
13. Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam
14. That's Not My Name - The Ting Tings
15. Still Figuring Out - Eliot Minor
    
16. Beat It - Fall Out Boy
17. Silver Bullet (Acoustic) - Hawthorne Heights
18. Smoke And Mirrors - Ipso Facto
19. Pushing Me Away (Live) (Piano Version) -Linkin Park
20. Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse
21. Monsters - Matchbook Romance
22. You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison - My Chemical Romance
23. Face Down (Acoustic) - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
24. The Remembrance Ballad (The String Quartet Tribute) - Atreyu

"We're going down down in an earlier round,
and sugar, we're going down swinging.
I'll be your number one with a bullet,
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it."

Labels: lyric(s), picture(s), playlist, Quinn Allman, Theoretical Girl

HAHA, OMG, yesterday was the BOMB! Had YMC, CSP planning thing. Us, Crescentians, went high at the field behing the building. THERE WAS A FIELD THAT WE DIDN'T KNOW EXISTED! :OOO In my group there were me, Alyssa, Dini, Sara, Sitifa and Nurul. We totally won the most votes. Haha, baik ar! Then group two and seven tied and thus, we are gonna do THREE projects! YAY YAY YAY!

Did I mention I kept on singing Jason Mraz's I'm Yours and Miley Cyrus's 7 Things the whole day, especially Jason Mraz's I'm Yours. Then while I was singing that at the lobby, something awkward happened. (Hanisah, you gotta know.) Then I kepo-ed in Alyssa and all kena ambik gambar. Hehe, just say I'm awesomeexzxz.

Then after that me, Sara, Ameera, Farah, Nazihah, Alisa, Kamal, Zainul, Hadi, Fahmy(?), Izhar, Hakiim, Muhammad, Haziq and Hafeez took bus to Parkway Parade. Then I think Hafeez went home cause I didn't see him around after awhile. Haha, so anyway, me and Sara went to arcade awhile after Farah, Ameera and the RI guys had gone there. I OWNED HAKIIM, IZHAR AND FARAH AT RACING. How cool is that? I beat TWO guys at racing. HA.

Haha, so me and Ameera met Shaleen first at Macs. Then Farah belanjered me since she owes me Birthday present. :DD Ate Grilled Chicken foldover and gave Shaleen whats left of my foldover - the greens. They gave me like a damn lot la. Haha, so Farah and Shaleen were fighting whether Rei/ Ray/ Wei (an RI rugger) had toned legs/ was hot. And they were kabooming Izhar with questions. Hilarious shizx. Izhar had like weird expressions throughout. HAHA.

Then Izhar said that that person had the same kinda legs as Shaleen and from then onwards, Shaleen kept on looking at her legs. "Eh, my legs very ugly, how can be the same?" Haha, go Sheen! I totally forgot everything else that had happened there. Okay, maybe not.

Then after that Shaleen had to go off first. The rest took a bus to Geylang and after that, everyone else went off except Farah, me, Sara, Izhar, Muhd, Hakiim and Haziq. The guys went solat first. And after that, we walked all the way since I heard someone wanted to buy food. After we got to all the makan makan place, we bought only three cups of drinks. *hjlskahuohdfsajbanbdsbjfk*

Haha, so Farah called her Bibik and said that we could go her house! YAY. All of us watched Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. Damn cool I tell you. The last time I saw that movie was when I was 6? Haha, I realised I haven't watched the ending before. At all. Very weird considering I can remember the first part quite well. So as we were watching the movie, Hakiim kena syiok tidur on the armchair. And when we were about to leave, Izhar was patting him on the leg to wake him up.

Hakiim kinda shook Izhar's hand off. HAHA. Then after 10 seconds worth of trying to wake him up, finally Hakiim woke up and had that blur look. Damn kelakar! Farah's mom and nenek just got home when we went out of Farah's house. Haha, I noticed Farah's nenek is the ONLY adult that calls me aki. Then as we were walking to the bus stop, Hakiim was still half dead. xD Hakiim: Aku mati mati fikir aku tidur kat rumah aku.

HAHA, baik ar tu. Then blahblahblah, reached home at around 11.30pm. Slept at almost one. O.O But I told my dad I got home at 10.30. So ssssh. Okay done with yesterday.
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"I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted."

"And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do - you make me love you."

Maybe I shouldn't blog about this but my sister's getting kicked out of the house. I am not going to cry. I am not. For my family's sake and myself, I'll be strong. Like I have always been since I was eleven.

Labels: blur, buka luar, emotional relapse, Farah's house, Geylang, happy, hinthint, late night, lyric(s), Macs(:, Parkway Parade, racing, sexy legs, sister, YMC

Today was unfruitful. Nak mug Geog tak jadi.I got distracted. Not my problem. XD HAHA. So anyway, I was giving out free PINK post-its to everyone I know who was there. And on those post-its were stupid messages. Yes, mainly because I was bloody bored. But why PINK? Ahhh, that is because, I was lazy to take out any other colours. I have blue, green and yellow too. Haha, I'm a post-it maniac. So what? XD

Oh and haha, after that me, Sara and Mur went 484. There we saw all those budak budak sana la. Indra was like damn funny. Just for the record, I wasn't flirting with your guy.

Mur: Indra! Your boxers! Astaraghfirullah.
Indra: Aaaaaaaaaah! *Pulls pants up really high,waistline there*
Me, Sara, Mur: Whaaaat. HAAAAHAAAAA.

Indra damn funny seh. Haha. I was a psycho today, very stalkerish/ obsessed. Sorry ah. It's been too long. XD AHEM. I buka-ed outside tooo. Ate BBQ Beef, damn nice. Haha, okay. I GOT MY PHONE BACK. BYEBYE. Ngantuk ah.
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At least you’ll have my heart.
You know you shine so bright.

Tonight, we fly away so high,
Tonight, We fly away.
You know the moon is full and,
I can't live without you.

Silver Bullet
- Hawthorne Heights

Labels: 484, lyric(s)

Do you people who talk to me a lot or not realize something? I never use the common phrase LOL. Nope not once. My dad banned me from using it when I just got my hand phone way back in 2006. Yup. Sad but true. And right now, I'm kinda proud cause I barely use slang :D According to dad, LOL means Living Out Loud (and not Laugh Out Loud as you people would say) aka being gay or lesbian or stuff. That's why I can't use it. See I'm such a good girl :D I follow daddy's word. And dad says I can't have boyfriend till I get a stable job. I guess that's gonna be true. I love my dad :D

Today is like SLACK day. Damn the boring. I woke up at ten thirty, bathed, used internet for a while, watched teevee for a while, use internet again, went to sleep till three thirty or four, watched teevee, ate and used internet. HAHA. Lazy sunday mornings and nights. :/ At this rate ah, I think I'll gain weight. And I already like my flat tummy :} There you go Salwa(:

I'm going Ramadhan Rocks camp! WHOO. Mum says GO LA. Dad says ANYTHING. So, that means a resonating YES. It beats sitting at home doing nothing and fainting is worth a try. *shrugs* :D I plan not to faint. HELLYEA.
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"When you see me fly away without you,
shattered on the things you know,
feathers fall around you,
and show you the way to go, it's over.
It's over."
I guess you stand a better chance than me.
Good luck to you then :)

I am still debating whether I should laugh or cry.
I love Theoretical Girl.

Labels: ban, boring day, camp, dad, heartbroken, irony, LOL, lyric(s), obsession dying, slack day

SNIFFLE SNIFFLE.
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I can't seem to cool down. Another thing just occurred to me. My phone got bloody confiscated. Don't ask. So most probably, if you see this post at night, then most probably you got the password already. And yeah, don't tell anyone okay? They have to ask me personally(:
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Today's a disaster. I've been sneezing ever since school started at seven this morning and I'm still sneezing. It sucks. During exam, my eyes and nose was red. It totally sucked. Then sniffled sniffled all the way through Malay exam, self study time, recess and Literature exam. All I needed was a good rest, but no, on the bus, Adee just had to disturb me. Ass.

Nishan said I should have gone home after Mother Tongue exam, but I refused, since I hate seeing empty slots in my report card. Now I think I should have. I'm still sniffling. And I have taken Clarinase, ohmygod, hate this sickness. My mail is taking freaking forever to load. Which so totally sucks too. Argh. I hope I'll be well by tomorrow because it's math and science exam bebbeh.
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You haven't been online lately. Yeah, you were on Sunday, but someone else was using my laptop, so I couldn't talk to you. Darn, the obsession's back. I want to see you.
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"Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind, she's fallen behind.

She can't find her place, she's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place."

Labels: common tests, lyric(s), random, unwell

Hello. Here to make a short speech.

I don't wish to get involved in your little catfights. Nor do you dare pull me into your bitchfests. If you do, I swear, I will blow up with all of you who started this little bitch shit. Stop arguing. I've had bloody enough. If I do blow up, don't say "Oh no! THERE SHE GOES... again." Let me tell you something missy(s), I have never ever gotten angry this year by friends. Family, yes. Friends, NO. Don't let this be another start of my screaming spree. Let me warn you first. Drag me in and you die die die. And that's the end of our friendship, understood? If you don't then too bad. Miss me while you can. Note, and while you're at it, don't you have secrets to confess?

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"Hold on, feeling like I'm heading for a breakdown"
And Salwa, sorry I lied babe, I really am gonna be depressed. I didn't want to you to know.

Labels: breakdown, emotional relapse, lyric(s), pissed, rant

Yo. I'm back with pictures. Of the kenduri on Saturday(: THANKS TO DIAN for the pictures ^^-captions above pictures
3 little pigs XDNow, 3 not-so-little girls(:HA, adee's face got cut out.Feminine? Riiiiight.
Other pics are damn unglam. So yeah. And more coming soon. It's still in mummy's pretty green camera and mummy has yet to email them all to me(: Oh and here's for you guys. One of my kiddie pictures.

It was taken at the airport, Terminal Two, I think, when I was nine. I am the one sitting in the middle and my younger sister's the one on the right. For your information, I was wearing a white Barbie doll tee with pink sleeves and a red checkered Hello Kitty dress on top. My sister was wearing a blue denim dress with flowers all over. I miss those days D:-
To you, I'm sorry. I really am. But I don't want to keep secrets anymore. I really don't want to. It friggin sucks. I don't think we can still be close friends this way but I hope we can still keep in contact. THIS. FRIGGIN. SUCKS. I sure as hell will miss hanging out with you. Sad to say, the show must go on. Talking about shows, astalavista babes. The show's over if I fail Geography common test badly. So right now, hardcore Geog mug. (Baik ar, exam starts at 11 later.)
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"Why the hell you go and make things so complicated?"

Labels: lyric(s), picture(s), rant

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

[Chorus:]
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

[Chorus]

How do you think I’ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to

[x2]
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside

[Chorus x2]
-Linkin Park, By Myself.

In crowds just don't know a thing about being on the sidelines. Watching them, trying to be them. They don't know. And I guess, they'll never learn.

Labels: Linkin Park, lyric(s), pissed

The letter has a second edition. But this time. It's really silly. I swear. 'The person who wrote this letter' = the person sitting behind me. So I know. Too bad for you non gee-oners. You won't know who. HAHA.
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1) I am so short. I hate being short. I HATE BEING SHORT. I am a mere 147 cm. A MERE 147 CM. C'mon friggin primary fives are taller than me. I hate being short. I want to be tall tall TALL. Tall enough. My ideal height is 1.6. BUT NOOOO, I just had to be wayyyy shorter than that. I'm the shortest. I don't want to be shortest. Darn genes. DARN DARN DARN. Last time, I would say, it's okay. But now, NO. Being short has a lot of disadvantages and so few advantages. ARGH. I want to grow tall fast. Get me a skipping rope.

2) Thursdays. The worst days of the week. Firstly, there's Design and Technology first thing in the damned morning. I swear it's so boring. There'll be a hundred percent chance more than half the class will fall asleep if the teacher's weren't so strict. No offense. And please for god's sake, the lessons are practically lullabies. Ohmygod. Oh and there's this thing called Computer Studies where we are made to sit in the freezing cold and do software related stuff such as Flash and Dreamweaver. And expected to compile everything we know of it to create a excellent PBL website. COME ON. Internet is fishing distracting. Oh and then there's PBL, which, hellyeah, you guessed it, we are supposed to continue on with our PBL website. How great.

I still love Malay classes and Angklung & Kulintang though ^^
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EH EH EH, PLEEEEAAAAAAASE HAVE YMC GATHERING! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME AFTER NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS AND I MISS SHALEEN ALOTSXZXZX AND I MISS ALOT OF OTHER PEOPLE ALSO. SO PLEEEEAAASE! DON'T CANCEL ON ME D:
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"I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix,
I can't take it.
Just one more hit,
I promise I can deal with it.

I'll handle it,
fix it.
Just one more time,
then that's it.
Just a little bit more to get me through this."
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Psycho.

Labels: addicted, lyric(s), outing, rant, YMC

Hey, I see. I haven't blogged for two days. How cool. :D I'm a hardcore blogger. HAHA. Okay yeah. Yesterday went to RI vs Saints Rugby at Yio Chu Kang. Met up with Farah, intended to wit for Mur but in the end we ciao-ed first. So yeah, after awhile Mur, Kak Feena came. Then awhile after that again, Alisa and Nazihah came. Haha, yeap. Don't ask who won. Eh, you guys all, Izhar, Alif and Haziq, cheer up okay? I don't like seeing people cry. Reminds me of... stuff. So yeah, cheer up :)
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I'm hungry, I didn't eat during recess. Just to save money for this Friday. And I need new school shoes. My Gallaz skate shoes are torn. So is my P6 badminton shoes. I need new shoes. Get me Pallaz ones. They look cute. :D Oh and I need a new school bag too. It's a horrendous shade of white that does not even look white. Please please please.

Why the hell am I complaining when I am much luckier than most others who live in LDC such as India and Africa? Be grateful. But I still NEED new shoes and bag. Oh while I'm at it, get me some Signo pens for my exams. Kaythanksbye.
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Ah. I'm a total psycho. I still remember the fireworks. I'm writing in random sentences so that you won't figure what I'm saying. I miss a lot of people. My TPC wireless is still not fixed yet. *CURSES* I'm using Xin Yi's. Thanks ah! Oh and Design and Tech homework is still not done yet. But I don't want to do. Can I absent myself tomorrow? We might be getting class tees today. HAHA. yeah so Bye.
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"I want to live in paradise."

Labels: lyric(s), match, needs, psycho, random

The only time you ever have to look up to see me.
Naz: "Woah aki, I'm actually looking UP at you."HAHA! SATURDAY WAS SO FUN! YAY! I went to North View Primary along with Farah, Nazihah, Firdaus, Hakiim, Danish, Idris, Hafeez, Siddeeq, Amzar, Farhan and Amzar. Okay I think that's all. Sorry ah if I forgot to write/ type your name here. Yeah and I made a lot of new friends! PRIMARY FIVER-s! HA. And Diyana, they are way cooler than ya. xP Haha, met Tiffany, Joey, Sarah, Sufi, Joseph, Alifah, Serene, Leshma and Dwika. I swear, Dwika is such a cool name. Haha, I mean D-W-I-K-A. Damn unique! (THE FRIGGIN TAXI DRIVER CHEATED US.)

Haha, okay after that whole elephant drama thing, around afternoon, we just went to have fun around the school. The guys played dodgeball while a few of us went with Sufi as he had to apologise to Sarah. Aw, damn cute man. :D then after that went back to the enclosed court. I wanted to play dodgeball but in the end didn't because none of the girls wanted to. Baik ar. Anyway, I'd feel weird being the only Secondary Two girl playing among small kids and guys. Ah, heck. But at least I sweated it out at a very fun game of merepek volleyball with Joey, Tiffany and Sarah. So badadadum and ciao-ed the school.

Then the guys went to play the monkey bars and girls went to hide under shade along with Tiff and Sarah. And when the guys went in, Farah, armed with my deodorant, sprayed every single person we knew who walked in. except Amzar. The sun was hidden behind the fluffy white clouds for awhile and we girls went to serang the monkey bars. I swung myself up onto the monkey bars. I was sitting on top of the thing. HAHA. Yay! One advantage of being a super hyper monkey when I was small. WHOOO.

After a whole afternoon with them, I went to NDP Preview. I got ticket from LuKhei. Note: TICKET. So yeah, I sat alone, since XinYi came in early and had first row seats. Ah, nevermind. I made the best out of it. And the motivators, okay some, were like super cute. HAHA. Sheesh. What girl talk on blog ah? Damn merepek english. XD Oh and I screamed cause I wanted to lose my voice.

Went home alone, and Tiffany called me! I told about SOME stuff which no, I'm not telling you guys. But she say she CAN and WILL come Crescent! SO COOL RIGHT? Like later, I'm Sec 4 then she, Sec1 knows me a Sec4, HAHA! COOL!!! Pictures are all on Farah's blog.
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SHOOT, I WANTED TO GO TO SINGFEST. WHY NEVER AJAK ME?!?! D:
Okay, tada. ADIOS. Strapped for time.
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"And as we wind on down the road,
our shadows taller than our souls."
Yes, I do listen to Led Zeppelin.

Labels: CIP, lyric(s), NDP Preview, NVPS, SingFest